dunno whether its just me being stupid. forgetful or plain unlucky... guess wad. i left my handphone on the bus while taking it back from bouna vista to school. i was smsing and stoning along the way. finally falling asleep. due to the constand rhythmic lullaby of the bus's movement and sound. my hand was still holding on to the phone. next thing i knew the bus-stop i was supposed to alight came. i franctically took my bag. my file. pressed the bell and alight. then i realised how come my pocket suddenly felt very light. feeling around. i realised that i left my phone on the bus. turning back. i saw the bus fading into the horizon. ungraspable. my heart suddenly sank. i did not know what to do. never have i lost my phone before. however. it wasnt the first time i have had this kinda of feeling before. i crossed the overhead bridge to coronation plaza and phoned my dad. he helped me phone singtel to terminate my line straight away. so that there wun be any misuse of my phone. i felt very troubled for the whole day after that. din know what to do. din know where to find for it.
calling SBS tomorrow. hopefully some kind soul returned my phone to the bus company. singtel is also delivering my new sim card to me tomorrow. quite impressed with such a servive indeed. especially with no cost. ^^

everytime i lose something. it just kinda freaks me out. maybe i am just being too emotional or attached to stuff that are mine. i never seem to want to let go. even old clothes and books that were mine. that cant fit me anymore. i just do not want to give them away or throw them away. there is always the sentimental value. what would i do next time if i were to lose something important in life. something more important than a few books and clothes. someone that i cant live without. someone that i care for. someone that loves me. would that be a devastating event for me. would i be able to let go and cope with it. would i suffer a permanent trauma. shock. i do not know. but for now i am sure that i treasure every single thing around me more than myself. i do not wish to let go. i want to bring them along with me and live with them for eternity. is that a thought too selfish? is it unrealistic? am i being too hopeful? that all depends on what unfolds in the future. hope by then i would be mature enough to withstand the pain. to understand others and learn to let go....